Dawn Summers

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 18:03:15 GMT

Um, I'm trying to understand all this, but it is isn't making a lot of sense.

If I've heard all of this right, there was a guard named Drogyn that made sure all of the god-kings like Illyria stayed in this Deeper Well place (but somehow didn't notice when Miss Blue-And-Not-Around-Much-Lately got out of there), and then Angel called him to L.A. and away from his guard duty to get himself killed? And, if what Spike says is right, probably by him?

If this Drogyn person had a really important job like that... It doesn't make any sense. I wish Angel would explain to me (and to all of us who are kind of clueless about this Black Thorn thing) exactly what happened instead of getting all broody and non-talky again. Hello, we're all supposed to be a team here...

Big Unexpected Demon Party Fun (or total lack of it)

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 20:03:00 GMT

The big meeting where we were planning to combine the Renraw information sort of got sidetracked, mainly because a Lorq'vir demon was on the loose. Buffy got the tip from Riley "I take off to jungles without saying goodbye" Finn, and it was a total drop-everything kind of problem. Then the problem (meaning the demon) came to find us, and Willow tried to take care of it, but whatever's making her magicks go poof knocked her out when she tried. But Andrew completely saved the day, even with his hand broken and smushed, by summoning this other demon that is the Lorq'vir's natural enemy, and that helped distract it until those army guys showed up. Good thing, because I had a knife and all, but taking that thing on might not have been the best idea. Anyway, Xander took Andrew to the emergency room.

Oh! But the demon said that Willow smelled of "Pravlan poisoning," so we actually have a clue about what's affecting Willow’s magicks (and her). I'd better get back and see how she's doing.

We're so close...

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 20:32:04 GMT

I think that we're finally getting somewhere with researching those horrible Renraw people. We (well, mostly me) found a tie to Los Angeles, and I passed that to Willow who found something else when she put that into her search.

We think that between the stuff we've found at the office and what Willow and Buffy have, we might have enough information to figure out what we're dealing with. Willow and Buffy are bringing their information to throw into the mix with ours so we can all talk about it. ~~Finally~~. I'm totally excited to see what happens when the pieces start falling into place, 'cause I just know that they will once we all start working on this.

Andrew? If you read this, I'm really really sorry that I told them about what you did, but like I said, better they hear it from me and while you're there too, right?

Wow.

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 20:00:51 GMT

I had no idea. I swear, I didn't know. I knew Spike was down in the dumps, but I had no idea that it was this bad. I mean, he wanted to die! He was ready to get dusted when they fought all those demon hordes. And he's been by himself so much... I know, I was mad at him for not telling us that he was alive, but I really had no idea what he was going through. I'm glad he told me.

And, um... Andrew and I came up with a Super Secret Brilliant Plan, and it totally worked. Spike won't be spending as much time by himself anymore, which is exactly what he needs. And neither will Xander, who's been being almost as avoidy with the rest of us as Spike, spending time with nobody except Illyria, and I don't know if she counts, especially after Spike told me about the girl who died so she could take over her body. Poor Fred. I wish I could have met her. I think we might've been friends. But like I was saying, they both need to spend time around people, Xander was looking for a place to live and wanted a roommate, and Angel told Spike to get a new place anyway... It's just perfect.

Andrew? We so rock!

You'd think that I work by myself here.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 00:04:31 GMT

Yes, I'm posting from work. Not like anybody would notice. Nobody ever comes out of their rooms much anymore, anyway. Angel is always in his office or out somewhere, Gunn hardly ever comes out of his room, and Spike is still in that upstairs room and hasn't found a place to go yet. This is not a happy workplace. The only person who seems like he's in a good mood is Andrew, but since gloominess seems to be a requirement here, it's a good thing that he doesn't actually work here, huh?

It's bad. I like Gunn a lot - he seems really cool. I know things suck for him right now, though, so I can understand why he's not in a happy mood. I'm just going to keep stopping by and making sure he's okay. But it's not just Gunn. Angel's been totally nice to me (a whole lot nicer than he is to anyone else), but he's really distant. Like more than my fake memories remember. And Spike... He's so different. He doesn't do much of anything, which is seriously unlike him. So, okay, I admit it, I worry. Oh, and my sister's still totally avoiding them both, and she's not being subtle about it at all. I mean, they already knew about her new boyfriend. I don't understand what the big deal is.

I want the phone to ring with a big case we can solve on the other end. A really big case so everybody has to help. And then we save the day and win awards and then maybe everybody would have a reason to be less gloomy.

What did we do wrong?

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 06:28:02 GMT

It's not supposed to be like this.

We solved it. We got a case and we solved it. We're supposed to save the day. It says "Champion Investigations" on the letterhead and the sign outside. What kind of champions are we if we can't save the day?

It's like what happened to Cassie, but different because we were supposed to stop the bad guys from hurting them. We were hired to help. Julia was our case. Her sister was counting on us. She was mixed up with horrible people and needed to be saved, and we didn't save her.

Buffy knows where I work now. She's not happy about it. I know she thinks that I don't have to live the same kind of life as her, trying to help people all the time. But she doesn't get it. I love her, but I wish she'd go back to Rome. She doesn't understand that if there's a way to try, then I need to be trying. We're going to find whoever did this to Julia, and Angel's going to hurt them. A lot.

I hope Willow feels better soon so she can help us.

Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 00:58:53 GMT

I like having a paycheck, even if it's so small that the teller at the bank gives me a look like, "Why are you even wasting my time with this?" when I try to cash it. I like having a job and getting to dress up a little and having something to do until school starts. I really like having a job where I can actually help when somebody's in trouble.

At this rate, everybody in town must have no problems whatsoever, because we don't have a single case. I'm so bored that I'm thinking about breaking out the vacuum. Okay, maybe not that bad, because I hate vacuuming. But close.

And I haven't told Buffy or anybody else who I'm working for. So don't tell her, okay? Yes, I know it's bad to do, but I'm not going to give this job up. No way. But I have to wait to leave for work until she's in the shower or our cold from patrolling or whatever, because if she saw me, I'd so be toast. Or not, because I can do whatever I want. It's a big benefit of being legal. But I still don't want to tell her yet.

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 21:39:29 GMT

Somebody (or a lot of somebodys) went up to what used to be Sunnydale and took a lot of photos. Me and Buffy and Willow went to see them yesterday. Guess they tried to get Xander to go, but he couldn't. He's so serious all the time now. Anyway, we went, and the pictures were really disturbing. I remember what it looked like after it happened, but real pictures and memory pictures are two really different things.

But I have two words for you. Stupid. Hellmouth. Glad it's shut, but some magic box (not THE Magic Box, since that's long gone) somehow survived and made my sister freeze up for a while, although she wasn't pose-able (I tried). But Willow fixed it.

Oh! But before we went to that... I GOT A JOB!!! Don't tell Buffy. Actually, don't tell anybody until I get a chance to. Yesterday just seemed like bad timing. And I don't know if she'll be too happy about who I'm working for. Too bad, 'cause I'm getting paid for doing stuff that I usually do for free. And since I'm getting paid right now, I probably should go do something and look busy.

Nose In Books Week

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 16:57:58 GMT

Oh my god. I can't believe some of the stuff Angel had shipped down here! I probably should be out job-hunting, but I've spent the last couple days at Angel's new office/house/whatever going through the boxes of books, and he has some really cool books in his collection. I guess they're all extra-cool now since so many of the coolest ones are gone, thanks to that stupid preacher guy blowing up the Council.

I know that Wolfram and Hart were super-evil, but I really wish I could've seen what they had. It must've been amazing.

I'm at the coffee house down the street that's got internet so I can write this. It's kind of annoying, actually, even if it gives me an excuse to drink toffee nut lattes while I'm invading his space. But if that's going to be an office, he should get things that are office-like, like maybe a computer or something? Whatever. He's Mr. Sole Detective Proprietor.

Hee! Totally didn't mean to pun, but "Sole" vs. "Soul"? Get it?

The Bribery Plan (like that could work on me)

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 00:28:31 GMT

Yesterday, I was at home and everybody else was out doing stuff, or I thought everybody was. I didn't know that Spike was still there. I guess I've been avoiding him since he showed up walking around like he didn't get buried in a giant sinkhole and burnt like a super-charred marshmellow.

I know that he wants to be friends again. I can see that when he's talked to me the last couple weeks. I don't know yet. I used to trust him, I really did. I get it now that I didn't totally understand what he was, and maybe that was stupid of me, but he never tried to hurt me. He looked out for me. He didn't treat me like a kid. He treated me like me. When Buffy... when she was gone? He was always there for me, way more than anybody else.

But then he hurt my sister. He hurt her by what he did at the Magic Box that one night, and then he tried to hurt her in our own house. Then, after he disappeared for the summer... yes, I know that he had a soul after that, but he was insane and killing people for a while. It took me a while to trust him again once all that got figured out, but it still wasn't the same at it used to be. But then we lost him, and I missed him. He ended up being a hero, and I cried. I cried a lot. Buffy did, too.

If he'd told us he was back to being undead instead of just plain dead, then things might be different right now. He didn't. He was alive for a whole entire year and didn't tell us. How could he not call? Maybe even sent a card or something?

Anyway, yesterday, he gave me a ~~present~~ bribe. He knows I'm mad about him not contacting us. I so have every right to be. I wasn't going to open it, but I guess I wanted to know what it was. I couldn't leave it just sitting there, right? But he thinks that it's going to make everything better, that a piece of jewelry will make up for everything. Like that could ever be enough. It's not.

I appreciate the thought, though.

Yawn.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 04:13:00 GMT

Haven't written this week because I've been busy sitting in a chair. Check out my exciting vacation, huh?

I've been at the hospital. All. Week. Okay, not all the time, because other people have been taking shifts, but who's been stuck here most of the time? Me. I'm guard-girl, which to Buffy means that I'm the girl with a phone who calls if there's trouble, like demons breaking down the door or something, Which, come on, a cell phone might be a weapon, but if a demon horde is breaking down a door, I'll be in the next hospital bed looking just as bad as he does.

Yep, I said demon horde. Did I not write about that? Oh yeah. Guess what? Angel's here, being hunted by a demon horde. Hello, couldn't he have just sent a postcard or something? He got here the day of the earthquake, and don't even tell me that the two weren't connected. And he brought this freaky chick with blue hair with him named Illyria, and this guy I've been guarding, and oh, by the way, SPIKE. Who died. I know he did. He even says he did. And he's still dead like undead, but he's not dead like dead anymore, and this whole thing makes absolutely no sense. And what's with him not telling us that he was alive? Rude much?

Haven't really heard the whole story about exactly how Spike's walking around again because, look at me, at the hospital. It doesn't totally suck, though. I've been working on Greek, with the Olympics coming up in Athens in August, and I want to be able to translate some of what they might put in the ceremonies. And if I can't figure out what they say, I'll just make it up. Buffy won't know. If she's still here then, I mean. I hope she's not, and not because I don't like her being here, but if she's in Rome, she could totally go to Greece to see some of the Olympics. Bet her boyfriend would take her. I bet he gets, like, special invitations to stuff there.

But more about why this job doesn't completely and totally suck... Because of the guy I'm guarding. His name's Charles Gunn. He hasn't woken up in any coherent-like way yet, and he was really badly hurt in that huge battle in L.A that Angel was in. The doctors say that he should be regaining consciousness soon. They keep asking if I'm related, and I tell them I am but they don't believe me. I totally could be! I could have that skin-paling weirdness or something. It could happen. Okay, probably not, but at least they let me stay.

Um, Earthquake? Great.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 23:14:46 GMT

Does this entire state just have it in for us? Willow, Buffy, and I were watching Friends videos when the earth went ker-floomph. Radio says it was 5.1 on the Richter Scale, like 70-some miles from us out in the ocean.

Last time I was in an earthquake, we were still in Sunnydale and there were a bunch of demons who tried to start an apocalypse. Yes, I know, I wasn't actually there or even me yet, but I remember it, so shut up. And the time before that, my sister died (the first time). Both super-bad.

This could SO not be good, or maybe it's sign of something not-good. We're not sure yet. Willow's googled for prophecies that might have to do with today, but she's not getting any decent hits. I'm really hoping that this was one of those normal plate tectonics things.

Reunion/Vacation, which is WAY overdue.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 04:02:48 GMT

I'm in an amazingly good mood today. Why am I in such an amazingly good mood, you ask? One word:

VACATION!!!

Huh. You'd think that I was excited or something.

No, I'm not going anywhere on vacation, because the vacation's coming to me. Which is cool, because I don't have to pack anything this way.

Of course, the entire last year has been a vacation for some people, like a certain sister of mine who will remain nameless. While I was busy with my all-important education, Buffy was always out at clubs or hanging out with her new boyfriend. But I'm not bitter. No, really, I'm not. It's cool. She's saved the world a bunch of times, so she's allowed. Besides, my school in Rome was amazing. Oh, and I can't blame her for the boyfriend part either, because he's totally hot.

Don't tell her I said that.

She just got here from Rome so she can tour the campus with Willow and me. It's SO cool that Willow and I will be going to college together! Obviously, she's way ahead of me, but we'll be at the same campus. How cool is that? We've already got an apartment and everything. Oh, and Xander's going to arrive tomorrow from Africa, and I haven't seen him in forever! Not since he said okay to that huge plan Giles had for some of us to look for all the new slayers Willow powered up. I think if there was a contest or tally or something for found slayers, then he'd definitely win. He hasn't taken a single break.

ANYway, I'm going to get off this thing and be social. Wait until Buffy sees the college. Xander, too. They're going to flip!